Showing posts with label nature. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nature. Show all posts

Thursday, July 19, 2018

Messages

On vacation last week.

It was a mini-vacation, tacked on to picking up Middle from camp and taking Oldest to freshman orientation (yes--we are there, and it feels both unreal and part of a natural progression and that is all my heart will let me say about it right now.) And our mini-vacation was a highly imperfect thing for many reasons, but now, a week out, the glowing moments stand out and the less-glowing will hopefully/probably join the canon of remember whens we can mostly laugh about now that they are at a safe distance. Now, a week out, the glowing moments are scattered generously through our trip, and our day in Cuyahoga Valley National Park shines especially bright.

It is right and good, that in a beautiful place set aside for wild and wonder and exploration one will find messages. Subtle, overt, intentional, imagined, serendipitous--there for the receiving. And for answering. We found the first four below. The last was Youngest's answer. May we remember it all.









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Friday, March 2, 2018

"Cicada" in Whale Road Review



The spring 2018 issue of Whale Road Review, an online poetry and short prose journal, came out yesterday, and I have been slowly reading through it. Relishing it, more like. It is an honor to have my poem "Cicada" included among all this richness. I hope you will find the time to take a look.



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Saturday, January 20, 2018

Note to Self


There is plenty to fear in this world, and more than enough horror to go around. Let this change you, yes, but don't let it stop you. Practice every day standing tall and being soft at the same time. The fear will be there whether you go forward or hide, so you might as well go forward: reach out and see and listen and reach out and see and listen. Tall and soft, tall and soft. Rest when you need to. Fight for what is right. And watch for what is beautiful. Let that change you, too. Let it carry you. Then carry it with you, to every damn dark place you can.



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Friday, March 31, 2017

Rock & Sling 11.2 link, plus a picture

The current issue of Rock & Sling is now for sale on their website. It is an honor to have my poem, "Elision," included in it. "Elision" is a spring poem, about a chamber music concert I played in a few years ago. There were birds nesting up in the ceiling above the stage, and those of us waiting backstage could hear them singing their hearts out while our colleagues played onstage. The sound was magical and is something I carry with me still, but what also lingers is the momentary dissolving of walls. It is not often that I have felt like such an active participant in the ushering-in of spring. If you are interested, you may buy a copy here.

I had the briefest moment earlier this week, waiting in the car for Youngest to come out from a lesson (You don't have to come in anymore, Mom, it's okay) when the walls dissolved again, rain and trees and windshield melting into something new and beautiful. I even had enough space in my phone to get a picture. Happy spring to you, friends. May you turn and catch the walls dissolving every once in a while.





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Wednesday, February 22, 2017

From My Reading, 2/22/17


I started, but never finished, reading George Orwell's 1984 in high school. Eventually I will get back to it, but I am glad now that I read this first. 


From Brave New World, by Aldous Huxley:

"But why is it prohibited?" asked the Savage. In the excitement of meeting a man who had read Shakespeare he had momentarily forgotten everything else. 

The Controller shrugged his shoulders. "Because it's old; that's the chief reason. We haven't any use for old things here."

"Even when they're beautiful?"

"Particularly when they're beautiful. Beauty's attractive, and we don't want people to be attracted by old things. We want them to like the new ones."

A little later in the conversation, the Controller explains why none of the new things written can be like "Othello":

"Because our world is not the same as Othello's world. You can't make flivvers without steel--and you can't make tragedies without social instability. The world's stable now. People are happy; they get what they want, and they never want what they can't get. They're well off; they're safe; they're never ill; they're not afraid of death; they're blissfully ignorant of passion and old age; they're plagued with no mothers or fathers; they've got no wives, or children, or lovers to feel strongly about; they're so conditioned that they practically can't help behaving as they ought to behave. And if anything should go wrong, there's soma. Which you go and chuck out of the window in the name of liberty, Mr. Savage. Liberty!" He laughed. "Expecting Deltas to know what liberty is! And now expecting them to understand Othello! My good boy!"

The Savage was silent for a little. "All the same," he insisted obstinately, "Othello's good, Othello's better than those feelies."

"Of course it is," the Controller agreed. "But that's the price we have to pay for stability. You've got to choose between happiness and what people used to call high art. We've sacrificed the high art. We have the feelies and the scent organ instead."

"But they don't mean anything." 

"They mean themselves; they mean a lot of agreeable sensations to the audience."

"But they're...they're told by an idiot."

"The Controller laughed. "You're not being very polite to your friend, Mr. Watson. One of our most distinguished Emotional Engineers..."

"But he's right," said Helmholtz gloomily. "Because it is idiotic. Writing when there's nothing to say..."

"Precisely. But that requires the most enormous ingenuity. You're making flivvers out of the absolute minimum of steel--works of art out of practically nothing but pure sensation."

The Savage shook his head. "It all seems to me quite horrible."

"Of course it does. Actual happiness always looks pretty squalid in comparison with the overcompensations for misery. And, of course, stability isn't nearly so spectacular as instability. And being contented has none of the glamour of a good fight against misfortune, none of the picturesqueness of a struggle with temptation, or a fatal overthrow by passion or doubt. Happiness is never grand."

*     *     *

More and more I find myself wondering what we are buying, and buying into. How normal it seems in this corner of the world to expect and demand comfort and ease. How natural it seems to be to allow oneself to behave and be treated as first and foremost a consumer. How often I hear people confusing education with job-training. Does it raise a fight in you, the way it does me?

*     *     *

My other offering today, something old and beautiful. Spent, I suppose. But look:






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Wednesday, May 4, 2016

Recently--Spring 2016








Music and dance and field trips and State Solo and Ensemble contest and recitals and concerts! And plans for the summer and plans for next year. It is hard to even think straight, this time of year, but somehow we always make it to summer. In between, especially as the kids get older, are conversations about music and art and justice and politics and kindness. Oldest shares what he is listening to. Middle, even if she is sleeping over at a friend's house and her phone is dead, will make sure I know the moon is rising outside, full and magical. Youngest shares her art and her passion and her compassion. Husband brings home mystery snails and we delight in them, some of us maybe wishing we could move through the world the way they do. And there are small treasures to find outside as the world warms and greens: seeds and sprouts, fireflies, the sound of frogs, the scent of lilacs and honeysuckle.


Monday, April 4, 2016

All along, while some things were waiting,


other things were growing. Many are now in full bloom, and it is every bit as right to be stopped in one's tracks by the obvious beauty out there as it is to be stopped by the quiet and hidden beauty. I suspect they are working together. And clearly nothing is ever finished.














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Saturday, March 26, 2016

Found, 3/26/16

Spending the season of Lent looking for signs of the Divine in the world around me.





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Friday, March 25, 2016

Found, 3/25/16


Spending the season of Lent looking for signs of the Divine in the world around me.





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Thursday, March 24, 2016

Found, 3/24/16

Spending the season of Lent looking for signs of the Divine in the world around me.





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Wednesday, March 23, 2016

Found, 3/23/16

Spending the season of Lent looking for signs of the Divine in the world around me.





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Monday, March 21, 2016

Found, 3/21/16


Spending the season of Lent looking for signs of the Divine in the world around me.


This leaf-lace is a gift from Middle. She left it in my open violin case while I was teaching so I could share it here later. (She found it, by the way, while looking for four-leaf clovers--a particular magic I have never stumbled across myself, but which she is able to find every time she looks.)




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Friday, March 18, 2016

Found, 3/18/16

Spending the season of Lent looking for signs of the Divine in the world around me.





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Thursday, March 17, 2016

Found, 3/17/16

Spending the season of Lent looking for signs of the Divine in the world around me.









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Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Found, 3/16/16

Spending the season of Lent looking for signs of the Divine in the world around me.


The world around me is turning warm, turning green. I am taking notice, and taking pictures. It is beautiful. I considered shifting with the season and documenting all this tender newness--I love the breaking-out of life and color, and I love the hopefulness it brings. But I am going to trust that you are noticing this, too, and loving it, and for now I am going to stay faithful to the things that are spent or waiting. Because they are still there, fading into the background now more than ever. They are easier to miss now more than ever. And maybe because of that they embody a faithfulness that I do not want to turn away from quite yet.




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Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Found, 3/15/16

Spending the season of Lent looking for signs of the Divine in the world around me.





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Monday, March 14, 2016

Found, 3/14/16

Spending the season of Lent looking for signs of the Divine in the world around me.


Where a rose bush was cut back, so in another place it could grow.




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Saturday, March 12, 2016

Found, 3/12/16

Spending the season of Lent looking for signs of the Divine in the world around me.






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